My Promise

Psalms 139 7-22a (The Message)

Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit? to be out of your sight? If I climb to the sky, you're there! If I go underground, you're there! If I flew on morning's wings to the far western horizon, You'd find me in a minute— you're already there waiting! Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark! At night I'm immersed in the light!" It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you; night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you. Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day. Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful! God, I'll never comprehend them! I couldn't even begin to count them— any more than I could count the sand of the sea. Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!

This morning in worship we sang a song that has always ministered to me. It goes along with my promise scripture:

He knows my name

He knows my every thought

He sees each tear that falls

And He hears me when I call

As we were singing this, such a strong feeling of closeness to God came over me, then an overwhelming awesomeness that the God of the universe, who created the heavens and the earth, hang the stars in space, told the waters where to stand, made the animals and created man, knows me. Little insignificant me. The color of my hair, how many strands. How tall I am, my strengths and weakness. And when I call His name, He stops and says, "yes, April, I'm listening to you. What you have to say is so very important to me."

That is such an incredible thought.

Psalms 139 has been such an inspiration to me because in times of insecurity and contemplations, I have often wondered if God really has a plan for me. Does He really know I'm here, or was I really an mistake, and God just worked me into the schedule, so to speak.

The verse that counters my thinking and proves that God has a plan for each and every one of is :

"Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you,The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day. "

Nope, God doesn't make mistakes. He intended on my life to count for His glory. He already had a plan while I was in my mothers womb. What an awesome thought. Although we may experience pain, disappointment, loss and abandonment, knowing that God is in control, He loves me and is holding me, I can continue on this journey.

I have a promise!!!!